Hello I guess I'm back on this thing again and yeah it's new, I happened to delete my previous blog cos I found out it's too tacky (yeah that's back then when I was a juvenile), initially I intend to delete it for temporary but then it turns out I couldn't find my previous blog - it's totally gone, lost somewhere in an alternate world - thus I decided to make a new one. I'm here coz I need to write down (okay type down to be exact) something that's been bothering my mind in quite some times - it's like the most resilient parasites stick in your mind, infecting yours in very unhealthy way, contagious to other body parts. Okay I may not going to type down what that thing is, I'm just going to type and type and type and type till I run out of any nifty words to make myself feel awesome, writing (or typing) have this special ability to calm my nerves, it makes me feel good all the time. I'm that type of person who can't just tell everybody (even somebody closest to me - or I thought they are) about my thoughts, about my problems, about my anxiety. I just happened to be the most secretive person I know, I rarely talk about my issues when I'm hanging with my best mates, I just tend to share some laughs with them which isn't bad at all - I cherish and enjoy every moment of it - and I can't be more grateful for having them in my life. It's just I don't feel comfortable talking about my issues to others, it's not their fault, it's me who's having a little too reserved. Frankly I don't know how to talk, how to act, how to behave when it comes to the touchy-feely stuffs. Therefore it seems I like to keep my issues to myself which isn't so wrong either. I don't talk to people cos I don't want them to feel sorry for me and I don't want to put the burden on their shoulder. Besides, I can't talk about it coz I'm afraid people will think I'm such a weird and wacky person if I tell them what's inside my mind. So that's the epitome of my unnecessary comeback, I'm feeling awesome already. Sorry for the inconvenience, enough crap, have a magnificent day people :)
ps: I'm not complaining here, I just wanted my friends to know that their presence is already a bliss to me.
me not talking about my issues is nothing to be worried for, it's not a big deal okay :D